Honestly not Honest in an Ideal World

So Honestly I can say that I only want to be with sexy chocolate men, But to be honest,it's impossible!!! Ideally yes, I'd like to marry a beautiful chocolate man,but life is far from ideal,which is why life is so much fun!!! Honestly I love everything about black men,their swagger,voice,skin,lips,everything. But to be honest I really do love all men, hints why I've dated just about every race, I mean why not? It's fun,I have fun and learn more about this non-ideal world. I once dated this guy,gorgeous,Viking type tall,redish brown hair,rode a motorcycle,so hot!! We dated for about 3 months,however he had liked me for a two years. Before we started dated,he said to me "you are still searching." I had no idea what he was talking about. I didn't really know what he wasn't talking about until maybe a month ago. You see I've been in this "only dating black men" phase. Now anyone who knows me,knows that, for me to do that would be damn near impossible. The more I think about it,the more I realize how closed-minded I've been and become. I love black people, I love being black, I honestly do and to be honest, think black is the most beautiful color skin on the face of this earth,but I also think that LOVE is the best feeling on the face of this earth.

Lets be real, life is way too short to have all these restrictions. Honestly I've found that my life was much more fun and exciting when I had less restrictions. But to be honest, I got myself into quite a few pickles with less restrictions. What i've learned recently though, is this, I can be controlled without having restrictions, as long as I understand that really ultimately I'm not in control. Honestly to be honest, I rather not be in so much control of my life,because that takes too much fun out of it. This particular posting was sparked by a very handsome viking type guy I met the other night and hopefully will meet again.

I know that I'm always complaining about not being able to find a beautiful chocolate man in the city of San Francisco. Though it's true a beautiful chocolate man is hard to come by in the city of San Francisco,but it by no means, means that a good guy is hard to come by in the city of San Francisco.


So though, ideally, I'd like to marry a nicely built chocolate man and have beautiful chocolate babies. I've come to the conclusion nothing in life is ideal.Because no one person is the exact idea of what they'd like to be in this life. And Lets face it folks,there is nothing "ideal" about this nubian in the city.

Thanks Dears and Do come again
That Black Girl!